Temptation he calls me

Temptation he calls me,
Singing me songs that make me want to dance to his tune.
His cologne is sexy,
Alluring, making me want to get close.
He's as tempting as a strawberry and mango ice cream,
Or like a large bar of hazelnut chocolate.
He smiles such a seductive smile
And am so tempted to get close.
Temptation knows my weaknesses,
Knows how to get me weak kneed.
I try to resist,
Try to make up my mind,
Try to say "NO" like the good girl I am.
The problem is temptation knows me personally,
We have known each other a long time,
From when I was a babe.
He knows my weak spots some better then even I.
And so he sings me a siren song to drown out reason,
And I sway to the music,
Trying to resist and keep my sanity.

Understanding her.

I don’t understand this woman. I stare at her. She's pretty, sweet and got a great body. But simmering behind the outward shell I see insecurities. I love her smile but it hides pain and anguish. She's loved and lost. Fought, is fighting battles that have left scars on her mind, heart, and emotions. She has been broken but she chooses to rise from ashes.

She has the heart of a warrior yet sometimes her mind betrays her with cowardly thoughts. She wonders if she will make it but thinks what other option is there. She talks to God asking for grace, for mercy and miracles. She knows her life is in his hands though many times she tries to snatch it back.

Sometimes angel, sometimes bitch, sometimes sweet, sometimes bitter, sometimes inspiring, sometimes depressing. She is beauty but she is also beast. I can’t understand this woman but I try.

I look at her and my reflection in the mirror stares back at me.

DON'T GIVE UP!

Can you feel it, see it, and smell it?
It’s coming!!!
Bright skies, brilliant sun.
Dreams transformed,
Invisible to visible.
I can hear them matching,
Good days coming.
Can you hear the music?
That’s the beat for your victory dance.
Don’t give up, they are coming.
Listen that’s your victory parade,
Your fans are rejoicing that you made it,
See them dance and sing.
There's your haters drinking sour lemonade,
Talking bad but there's nothing they can do.
Smell that,
Its faint but you can smell it.
The sweet aroma of success.
Keep reaching out, stretching yourself,
Working out your plans, maintaining faith,
Giving thanks, being the blessing,
Believing in God and self.
It’s coming to town,
Your days of triumph.
Don’t give up,
Not today, not tomorrow.
Lift your head up high,
Don’t give up!

Space, time and you!

There’s spaces and faces then there's you.
You were special because you made my heart swell,
You made it bigger,
Made it so full there was no room for anyone else.
Your face was like the sun,
I looked forward to seeing it
And it made my day bright seeing that smile.
But then space and distance broke this heart,
Made my inflated heart balloon burst.
The feeling of walking on air,
Feeding on love disappeared in a whoosh,
In the blinking of a space minute.
I stopped wanting to see your face,
It became like ice to me,
Cold, numbing and chilling.
There's major space where your love used to be,
Your face, it fades from my memory,
The texture, contours, and lines,
Slowly dissolving into space and time.

Smile - Song by Kirk Franklin

This song has been ringing in my head and it has been such an encouragement when I've been down.

Today’s a new day, but there is no sunshine.
Nothing but clouds, and it’s dark in my heart
and it feels like a cold night.
Today’s a new day, but where are my blue skies.
Where is the love and the joy that you promised me
tell me it’s alright.

(I’ll be honest with you)
I almost gave up, but a power that I can’t explain,
fell from heaven like a shower now.

(When I think how much better I’m gonna be when this is over)


I smile, even though I hurt see I smile,
I know God is working so I smile,
Even though I’ve been here for a while
I smile, smile..
It’s so hard to look up when you look down.
Sure would hate to see you give up now.
You look so much better when you smile, so smile.
Today’s a new day, but there is no sunshine.
Nothing but clouds, and it’s dark in my heart
and it feels like a cold night.

Today’s a new day, but tell me where are my blue skies,
where is the love and the joy that you promised me
tell me it’s – alright.

(the truth is)

I almost gave up, but a power that I can’t explain
fell from heaven like a shower now.

I smile, even though I’m hurt see I smile,
I know God is working so I smile,
Even though I’ve been here for a while
I smile, smile.
It’s so hard to look up when you look down.
Sure would hate to see you give up now
You look so much better when you smile.

Smile.. for me
Can you just smile… for me.
Smile.. for me
Can you just smile… for me.
ohohoh, you look so much better when you
ohohoh, you look so much better when you
ohohoh, you look so much better when you
ohohoh, you look so much better when you
ohohoh, you look so much better when you
(and while your waiting)
ohohoh, you look so much better when you
(and while your praying)
ohohoh, you look so much better when you
(look in the mirror)
ohohoh, you look so much better when you
(always remember)
You look so much better when you smile

I almost gave up, but a power that I can’t explain
fell from heaven like a shower now – right now.

I smile, even though I’m hurt see I smile,
I know God is working so I smile,
Even though I’ve been here for a while
I smile, smile..
it’s so hard to look up when you look down.
Sure would hate to see you give up now.
You look so much better when you smile.

so smile.
ohohoh, you look so much better when you
ohohoh, you look so much better when you
ohohoh, you look so much better when you
ohohoh, you look so much better when you
ohohoh, you look so much better when you
ohohoh, you look so much better when you
ohohoh, you look so much better when you
ohohoh, you look so much better when you
smile…

I just want you to be happy..
I want you to have joy ’cause can’t nobody
take that away from you.
I see you.. SMILE!!
[Kirk Franklin- I Smile Lyrics]